Yes, a smile goes a long, long way. I learned this while watching the children’s show “Ballooner Landing” when I was small. I also learned that hand-made puppets are creepy as hell on this show…but that’s a topic for another day.
As I was leaving work yesterday I happened to get on the service elevator with one of the hospital janitors that I’d met during the Christmas break. She was making some joke that wasn’t really funny, when she turned to me in the elevator and said, “Do you ever smile? I always see you working but you never smile.”
Now a number of thoughts ran through my head at this point…
“I don’t even KNOW you…”
“How much do you expect me to smile when I’m stocking body bags and IV solution in a ward?”
“This is my normal face. People would think I was nuts if I walked around smiling all the time.”
and so on…
Then I really got to thinking. Do I really look that grumpy when I work? I mean, I don’t talk to anyone except the two people I work with on the weekend because the rest of my shift I’m either checking supplies, loading them, or answering calls about them. Is there really that much of an occasion to smile while I work? I mean, sure if I’m reading or thinking or even talking about something funny I will smile and laugh, but is the rest of the population going around smiling all the time?
I highly doubt it.
I suppose I’m just used to strangers in the street generally not smiling unless they are with someone.
Perhaps I should start smiling more for no reason. I mean, I’m a happy person…I’m happy with life…why not smile? I think I’d get tired of smiling after a while to be honest. I wonder how grumpy I look when I’m relaxed. Apparently my relaxed face is almost identical to my angry face, which makes things interesting.
I don’t really have a problem with smiling at people on occasion that I don’t know. It’s really difficult though. Most people you smile at on the street or in the halls of wherever you may be generally don’t smile back for the most part. Are we all so scared of each other that we don’t even know how to react to someone smiling at us?
That really offers no explanation to why people seem so concerned about me not smiling. This isn’t the first time someone has said that to me either…even at the hospital. It really doesn’t make me want to smile any more than normal though when someone feels the humorous need to pipe up and tell me to strap on a Cheshire cat sized grin. I’ll smile when I feel like smiling.
I don’t really know how angry/indifferent I look because I’m not looking at myself all day. I don’t really know if I really think I should make an effort to smile more or not…
Is everyone else out there just walking around with a relaxed face like me, or am I oblivious to the smile fever that’s apparently missed me?